Como é bom falar português!

Don't go away! The article is in english!=)

Yesterday evening was a very special evening for me. I went to a great concert, met nice people, had a great time with friends. But the most important of all, was being able to talk to someone, eye-to-eye, in my mother tongue!

After two months and one day, in Norway, I never used my mother tongue to speak to someone, as you can imagine. Of course I speak with relatives through the internet or the telephone. I read portuguese newspapers, I read books written in portuguese, etc. However, after such a long time, speaking english all day long, you tend to forget a bit of your own language. It was so strange to use it again. I was feeling so rusty in the begining and uncomfortable. The words just didn't come out! My mind was almost blank!

For me, using the english everyday is not a big deal, at all. As you can see, I deal with it quite well. It is my second language, and I believe, that after sometime, I would manage to speak it, like my mother tongue.

It is hard to describe how you feel, when you can't express yourself so good as you wanted to. The jokes noone laughed because no one understood it. The news you read and you can't make your point. The confusion on your mind. It's a daily struggle you need to fight everyday,when you wake up. Fortunately, the adversaries are not that hard do beat, but still, they are on your way.

You can speak a second language in a percet way. However, it will never be the language you first listened to. The language you heard inside the womb, the language you learnt in the primary school, the jokes on high school, the verses your poets wrote, sentences writers used to describe a world of imagination, the fights, the anger, feelings, good or bad, the words you used to say "I love you", for the first time. It is something you take for granted for your whole life, it is a part of you, something so useful as an arm or a leg. And when you use a prothesis for a long time, you just want to walk by your feet again.

I felt realy good, being able to use such tool, after such a long time!
I felt at home, closer to my little land, my people., my country. The sounds, the expressions, invading all your senses, your mind, deep inside yourself, like a beautiful melody you never forgot to sing, and you will never will!

Caramulo, looking at the sea